do u feel the same ??

I have  always been a writer , but never a  systematic   and   consistent  one.

   I have logged into my Bloggers account after almost a year. I have done many meaningful and meaning less  things in this span .

Now as I go through  a strange rather different phase in my life may be sharing it with people known ,unknown or penning down thoughts (emotions) or doing stuffs I have always wanted to do but never prioritized  will make me feel good. Hence I come back…..

Few confessions:

    How does it feels to be the only child????

·         Do u feel princess all the time???

YES …..I do!!!

I find it awkward when my mom and my mashis (auntis) have the same pair of parents and even more awkward when they fight or argue over “ who gets to sleep beside ma”…

  For me its my mom..and I cant think of people with whom I have to bargain to get a place beside my mom…She is mine…I AM POSSISSIVE  ..

      Sharing my experience:

                       A couple of months  back my mother  had a helping hand (a girl in her late teens)who use to address  my mom  and  dad as “ma” and “baba”.  Strange but true, my mom use to go extra soft on her. She  was  excused  from  many of her  works .My mother  use to get her  chocolates   while coming back from school  and  … and …..I could not take it well. I had to go through a self counseling  session to get myself  accustomed.

·         Parents are always super protective..

        I have friends who says their parents aren’t …what I think that they are , just don’t  express. Trust me this is true. Almost all my cousins and friends have no siblings.

       I have a mixed set. MA is extra possessive and protective. She has to have an opinion about everything that I do.(everything literally means all apart from gazettes)..

       BABA mostly appears to be strong and barren when it comes to emotions. Ours (my dad side) is a family where emotions are not to be shown.. Considered sacred  and kept hidden…

But I know that he is extremely  frail with stuffs regarding me.

   Baba I have  heard you once say to Ma “Reea is my only weakness’”..hello Baba..hehe…I was lying down and not sleeping..never mind ..I have never or will ever take undue advantage of that. Good that I know it. At times showing of emotions is good.

·         Your opinion is always given importance. You  definitely get undue and undivided attention..

               I turned  out to be a  compulsive attention seeker..(only from MA,BABA, ASITAV)..

 

·         You almost always get what you want. May be initially you have to go through a lot of  “na na..so expensive(even if its not)..dont have money)…..

     This is only the sunny part..

                                                      As you grow up ,start understanding what responsibility is, do you at times feel that u need to be extra matured at times??You have to think about stuff that many other guys of your age aren’t giving a thought yet!!!

                                                    YES….I  feel I was a kid a couple of months back …Two three months more and I m a lady…I can feel my transformation …indeed I have grown up( mentally)..

                                                   

                                                     2012 made me much more responsible. I saw the other side of life.

I have always been so so much dependent on my DAD..Every little decision of mine had to be approved by my dad..The only way I knew I was not wrong..But time changes first..Situation comes when I am the sole one to decide what’s next?... Its my take now..I find it strange how ma relies on me unquestionably while I was the sole reason for all her worries and displeasure..It seems I am her strength now..

                                                

                                                    Ma and baba you r my  first priority and responsibility..You have given me everything to the best of our ability(love ,affection ,fun ,guidance all all all) . I am here today because of you..

                                                   I will always give my best to give you the best…